A Simple Prayer
A simple prayer I offer
Humbly before Your throne
Oh hear the words I proffer
And take me as Your own
Oh hear my eager crying
Your face my only view
My trembling heart requiring
To be at peace with You.
I ask no other blessing
Than that You own my name
While I am You confessing
Oh do for me the same
Till all the hosts here dwelling
Know as the hosts above
That all my sins dispelling
You claim me with Your love
Indwell Your precious temple
With truth and wisdom’s glow
Make me forever simple
Your word all that I know
And teach my heart to ponder
Each day as ever new
In never ending wonder
The mystery of You
And though this prayer is ending
Cease never our commune
The Spirit which You’re sending
Precedes Your coming soon
Refresh me with the water
Springing to eternal life
I am Jehovah’s daughter
And Your own promised wife
Copyright 2003 by Abigail
Why Don’t You Open That Door?
Posted by Abigail
Having my own bathroom sounded glamorous. As soon as we moved in, I set to work stripping off disgusting grey wallpaper, sanding down the uneven walls and painting it a delicious color of green. (Well, Lauren doesn’t like it, but it’s not her bathroom, now is it?) I hung new towels and put out the perfect canisters and soap dispenser, but I soon discovered that my “beautiful” bathroom has a nasty problem: mildew. Tucked into a back corner of the house, the humidity is high and the slimy black stuff appears from nowhere, crawling across the ceiling or down the shower wall and clinging to the tile grout.
I’ve rolled up my sleeves and scrubbed with bleach water (thought I’d ruined my hair when I accidentally spilled some on my head!) more times than I care to recall. For a couple of days the tile shines and the ceiling glows white again, then one morning I wake up to realize the mildew has crept back into life. Where does it come from? How does it get here? Why does it keep coming back?
One day my ever-wise mother responded to my frustrations: “Why don’t you open that door?” I blinked. I didn’t even realize that I do keep it closed, until she mentioned it. Of course, I have a cartload of excuses. For one, I don’t want everyone who comes into my room being tempted to use my bathroom–or even being able to see into it. You know, sometimes I have sweaty work-out clothes hanging up in there. Or dirty work jeans. Or the dirty clothes become restless and tumble out of the closet–it’s my bathroom, none of their business. In these cold winter months, it stays warmer than my 45-degree bedroom, which is nice for showering and getting dressed in the mornings. “So,” she said, “Close the door when you’re showering and dressing and leave it open the rest of the time so it can air out.”
Are you wondering why I’m going on and on about the mildew infiltration in my bathroom?
The mildew offered to me a prime picture of my heart. When I trusted Jesus it got cleaned up, adorned with good things and I thought it looked pretty good–for a while. Slowly, so many nasty things began to creep in. Where did they come from? How did they get there? Where there’s a bathroom, there will be mildew to fight. Every heart is deceitful and full of wickedness. When I notice the mildew in my heart, I go for the bleach and scrub brush and get to work cleaning, scrubbing, purging, repenting, weeping, praying. For a couple of days I seem like a shining, new individual on the inside, and then the mildew comes creeping back. Always, it comes creeping back. Always it will come creeping back, but “Why don’t you leave the door open?” Mom said.
Leave the door open? What in the–?
Accountability. Instead of closing myself up inside, hiding behind a white-washed door, I ought to be seeking accountability, opening myself up to scrutiny. Not to everyone (I don’t invite everyone into my room), but to my parents, to my siblings, to my closest friends and sisters in Christ. Not necessarily about everything. Some things are private-like showering–but do I really need the door closed when doing my hair? Putting on make-up? Or even cleaning? In fact, I might need accountability for those very things! What are the sins and struggles that keep creeping back into my heart and life, those nasty things I try to hide from everyone else? Thinking my agenda is so important, my bad habit of reading everything I see, or beginning to focus on outward appearance and worldly success. Or the fact that I don’t pay attention when Mom is giving me instructions because I think I know what is and isn’t important. Or not being disciplined about personal study or prayer time.
Just like getting some air into a mildew infested room can slow down the mildew’s growth, being transparent about my failures can often spur me to overcoming them and can dampen the temptation. Having someone know that I am tempted in a certain way can strengthen me to resist. After all, they might ask, or they might notice that mildew growing now the they know what’s behind that closed door. They can guess what I might be hiding when I say, “I’m doing fine.”
Seeking accountability involves more than just sharing struggles. There’s little need for a mutual pity party. Accountability involves action on both parts: prayer for each other, suggestions, Biblical guidance. When I seek accountability, I should be praying and seeking prayer. I should be seeking suggestions, tools and ideas for overcoming and resisting, for cleansing and purifying. And I should be looking for root issues. When I seek accountability, I should be implementing suggestions and expecting follow-up inspection. The goal is a mildew-free environment, not just an open-door policy. It’s not that I want people to have to look at my disgusting bathroom. The goal is to become presentable: a bathroom fit for the King.
“Why don’t you open that door?” Mom said. It’s habit now to close it-at least most of the way, but when I see it standing closed, a white wall barring the view into my “inner” room, I open it to let it air out. Sometimes it means I actually have to put those sweaty work-out clothes away, or wash that hand-towel, or get more toilet paper, or even go to work on that mildew when I’d rather be doing something else. I’m trying to learn to open up my heart to accountability, as well: let it air out to help slow down the mildew’s growth, implement other’s suggestions for cleaning, seek root problems and deceitful heart issues. Hopefully, at least, I’ll notice more quickly when the black slime begins to spread.
And perhaps it will encourage others to see that there’s hope. We all have mildew in our bathrooms and our hearts, but a little accountability and a lot of bleach can go a long way in the cleaning process.
We Have a Winner…
Poor Lydia was displaced for a slightly more random drawing from Random.org. And the winner of “Emotional Purity: An Affair of the Heart” is Carley! Fancy that! Happy birthday to you, Miss Carley! Looks like you won’t have to go buy your own copy, after all! Now, as soon as you’re finished, we expect a full report on how well you liked it…:D Just kidding, though we’d love to hear back from you. Thanks, ladies for entering! We wish we could give everyone a copy–it’s an excellent book!
Blessings,
Did you miss us?
We decided to let the last couple of posts sit and simmer…wanted to be sure everyone got a chance to read the men’s excellent feedback on “Respect.” If you haven’t read it yet, we highly recommend taking the time to look over their thoughts and give them some consideration!
And the giveaway is about to wrap up. Today is your last chance to enter to win “Emotional Purity: An Affair of the Heart” by Heather Paulsen. It certainly has brought a few lovely ladies out of the woodwork. We’ll announce a winner tomorrow (Lord willing) and get back into the swing of posting.
We’d still love to have more additions to the “Jesus Tales” page–testimonies of the Lord’s grace in the lives of ladies! We’ll try to get ours up soon!
Also, we’re still both grinding away at several writing projects, but we’d love to know: is there anything in particular you’d like to see us write about? Anything you’d like to see added here? Any issues you have or discussions you’d like to raise? We value feedback–both the positive and the constructive criticism! Anything that will encourage us to grow and learn even as we seek to share what we’re learning!
It’s been rather a refreshing break for us! 🙂 Lots of home projects are constantly calling our names!
“Lauren…Abigail…”
See? Like that. So it’s off to the next thing with the Lord’s reminder to do everything in His name.
Blessings,
You could be the proud, new owner…
Of your very own copy of “Emotional Purity: An Affair of the Heart” by Heather Paulsen.
We’re finally hosting another giveaway! And what can you expect? It’s a book! Fancy that. And a great one.
Check out our review of it, just a few posts back and then leave us a comment on this post to enter! If you’d like a second entry, announce this giveaway on your own blog or website and leave a second comment with a link to your announcement. Entries close February 23, 2009 and we’ll draw a random winner ASAP. Who knows? Perhaps this will draw some of the lurkers out of the woodwork.
Enjoy!
Blessings,
God gave you a brain…
Chew on this…
“I do not feel obliged to believe that the same God who has endowed us with sense, reason, and intellect has intended us to forgo their use.”
– Galileo Galilei
…and tell us what you think.
Be An Audio Bible Ambassador!
Sometimes I get super excited about something. So excited that I’m basically bouncing in my seat. This is one of those times. One of the mission organizations that I’m already super excited about is Faith Comes by Hearing, a group in Albuquerque, New Mexico that records dramatized audios of the word of God in many languages for distribution all over the world. The results are breathtaking! Especially in audio visual/traditional tribal cultures the dramatized audio captures the hearts and minds of the people for Christ and brings about huge transformations–entire villages! On the cutting edge of technology, they’ve developed solar-powered players that native missionaries can carry from village to village playing the word of God and now they are taking advantage of the 21st centuries Roman Road–the internet. You can download the audio Bible in MP3 from their website–free! And here’s what I’m super excited about–they are setting up a network that functions much like Skype, using a user to user interface to store pieces of the audio Bible in different languages on the hard drives of “host” computers. You can be a host! When you download the Audio Bible you can click a little button that says “share this” and instantly you will download the Bible in languages you can’t even understand–so that others wanting to download those languages will snag pieces of the Bible from you as well as other computers for a complete recording. It makes the program super cheap, super fast, super accessible and, get this, virtually untraceable. Perfect for distribution in countries where persecution is rife. No risk of being blacklisted or blocked when the info comes from a million computers across the world. Even the third-world countries are not so third-world–the internet has infiltrated where missionaries dare not tread!
In case you’re concerned about FCBH, I’ve actually been to their headquarters (several years ago–the year the Proclaimer came out), toured their buildings and almost got to record, even! These folks are the real deal. They’re on fire, simple, sincere and are pouring their lives and hearts and minds into this work–and God is blessing it! Faith comes by hearing and hearing by the Word of God…
To download the Audio Bible click here. You’ll have access to all the languages recorded. Be sure to click “share this” if you want to be an Audio Bible ambassador! You should be able to log in and even see how many people (and approximate locations) your computer has reached! Exciting or not?
Now you can see why I’m bouncing.
Blessings,
My Love-Hate Relationship with Vinegar
Posted by Lauren
Do you like vinegar?
Do you like adding it to soups, enjoy pickles that are soaked in it, and love sauerkraut? I sure don’t! I can’t stand the stuff! And yet we have two gallons of vinegar in our house as I type. I could do without the strong taste of vinegar, but it has other strengths that I’m quite fond of…
Did you know that vinegar is a disinfectant? It kills mold and germs and can make your bathroom and floors shine? Yep, this is why I love vinegar—or, at least, this is when I love vinegar!
*Pour a quart of white vinegar into your empty washing machine and run it through a small cycle to remove soapy film that builds up in the wash basin.
*Pour some baking soda down your icky drain and then add a 1/4 cup of vinegar and watch the volcano erupt, knocking the nasties loose.
*Load up a squirt bottle with vinegar and you’re ready to go, armed with a VERY inexpensive household cleaner that is guaranteed not to put harmful chemicals into the air of your home. And it’s one that you don’t have to worry about little ones getting into—first off, it tastes nasty (my humble opinion), and secondly, it’s safe for human consumption anyway! 😉 You can search online for more cleaning tips using vinegar. Perhaps you use vinegar for some other household secrets? We’d love to hear them!
Baked Oatmeal
Ingredients:
9 cups oatmeal
1 1/2 tbsp cinnamon
5 1/2 tsp baking powder
1/2 cup brown sugar
1/2 cup oil
3 1/2-4 cups milk
4 eggs
1/2 cup honey
Directions:
Preheat oven to 350 degrees. Mix dry ingredients together in a large bowl. In a separate bowl, beat liquids. Pour liquids into dry mixture and stir thoroughly. Spread in 2 greased 9 x 13” pans. Bake for 25-30 minutes.
Tip: For a quick breakfast, stir everyone except the baking powder together the night before. Refrigerate over night. Add baking powder in the morning and bake.